Busy Weekend, Bittersweet Visit

So, I am sitting here completely exhausted. It was a very busy weekend. All of the boys had baseball practices back to back every 2 hours on Saturday. Busy baseball season has begun! Jackson had a friend sleepover, which was a fun time. I ended up getting all of the boys packed to go on our trip for Spring Break. Whew! That was quite a task==3 suitcases and 3 carry ons for 3 little boys! Today, I got to start on my own packing. I'm pretty much done. I have a few things left to put in my carry on, and my toiletry bag, and then I'm officially done! WAHOO!!!

Then, Sunday, my mom and I went to Indiana to visit my grandpa in the hospital. That was just a sad and exhausting day. My grandpa was rushed to the ER last Sunday night. He was very sick. They thought he had had the flu. But, it turns out, that since he is borderline diabetic, his blood sugar was dropping. He entered the ER and had a sugar count of 20! That is critically low! He had gone into diabetic shock. The nurse asked if he had a living will, and told my uncle he wasn't going to make it. But, they gave him a sugar i.v. and he came around a bit. However, he also had gone into renal failure. He still is battling a touch of that at this point. His doctor told us that his Parkinson's has progressed. They've said that he will get increasingly more confused, more disoriented, and it will become harder to reason with him. While he's been in the hospital, he has also had a minor stroke. When we were sitting with him yesterday, his nurse informed us that he'd also had a touch of pneumonia. I was so glad to spend every minute I could with him yesterday. We chatted and laughed and shared a few funny stories. It was a good day for him. I cherish these moments, because I know that unfortunately these days are going to become rare. It breaks my heart. I am afraid to go on my trip with the boys for Spring Break. I worry that he will take a turn for the worst. My grandpa wants us to go, and was excited for the boys to get to go. We reminisced about when we used to live there, and when he and my grandma came out to visit us. Those were fun times! I'm not ready to lose this very special man in my life. My grandpa isn't one to show a lot of gushy emotion. But, I gave him a hug and kiss before I had to leave on Sunday night and I told him I loved him. He told me he loved me too, and to have fun on our trip. I kissed his head and said, "I'm coming to visit you when I get back!" He sort of smiled, and paused, and finally said, "I don't know where I"ll be." That broke my heart, and made me sad, and scared me. I have to go on this trip knowing it's what my Grandpa would want for me & the kids to do. He got teary when we left. And, of course, being a girl who cries, I teared up too. I've never seen my grandpa teary before. It was so sad. But, I love him so much. And, I have the answer to where he'll be......he'll always be in my heart....every day.....for the rest of his life and the rest of my life. Get Better Grandpa! We all love you!